What I love about Raya:
1. My dad's mee kari.
2. New clothes.
3. My family at home doing things together like sembahyang Raya, kelam-kabut open house etc.
What I hate about Raya:
Everything else.
I appreciate the fact that Syawal is His gift for us after one whole month of fasting and I am grateful for that, I am.
But generations of humanity have perverted its meaning with over the top exaggerations and false pretenses that it's just beyond my ability to accept it. And to make things worst, somewhere along the way of growing up, the magic of Raya went missing.
Yeah aren't I a ray of sunshine eh?
Anyway, I watched 'Into The Wild' a few days ago (hence my Eddie Vedder obsession) and it has intensified my irritation over the fact that I'm a girl and the disability to do the things that I want to do.
Then it hit me that I'm such a filthy hypocrite and if I really wanted to run off and live in Alaska, a microscopic detail like being a girl shouldn't stop me.
I then sadly admitted to myself that it's in fact, the security and pleasures of life that's stopping me. I really wish I had his courage. To damn everything and go live life out, in what I believe, the most simplest and pure and blameless way ever.
"Gonna rise up
Burning back holes in dark memories
Gonna rise up
Turning mistakes into gold.
Gonna rise up
Find my direction magnetically
Gonna rise up
Throw down my ace in the hole."
-Rise, Eddie Vedder.
3 comments:
as a guy, i'll give u a tip on how to pretend to be one.
dream big, start small.
getting yourself killed in alaska is big enuf of a dream. so, u're on the right track there.
jokes aside, it's not exactly about YOU being a girl. it's about what OTHERS think of u being a girl. unless all men are gays and girls can start having dicks, naturally, things won't change.
or if u just don't mind making people worried sick.
tl;dr, everybody/guy cares the pretty girls.
gross i don't want to be a guy. i like being a girl.
so what, I've got to start shooting people with a BB gun to make people think i'm a badass girl?
but thats just it. i'm too much of a wuss. I can't inflict pain without guilt, I can't stand making my mom worried. i can't even go over 60km/hr on a straight road.
"everybody/guy cares the pretty girls."
yeah people/guys are stupid/nice like that.
[i]so what, I've got to start shooting people with a BB gun to make people think i'm a badass girl?[/i]
haha! that would do it!
and hey, you are never a wuss by being responsible.
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