"the perfect words never crossed my mind..

..cause there was nothing in there but you."


Hello mortals.

The weather is getting much, much colder. Today, it was wet and windy. Not sure if I hated it or just wished it'll go away. We were running at the academic building, late as usual for practical classes, when this huge ass wind blew, along with dusts and sands and God knows what. I almost fell. Sufi and J's mouths were opened and all so...ew.

There's still some who's acting all macho and not wearing any jackets though. Sad to say I was one of them, heh. Yesterday I wore my super thin green baju kurung and a pashmina to Montazah for Imran's birthday. I was surprised I didn't get pneumonia. They were wearing coats and sweaters and were still shivering. I think they all agreed I was "most 'macho' person" of the week and yes, I wear the title with pride. It was really cold and windy but it was nothing I've not experienced before so it didn't bug me that much. I think it's a mental thing.
But I'm no longer an idiot. I wore my MNG today. But eh, not doing much difference.


Had a great short chat with Mirul. Yayness. A humango 'thank you' to you.
It's very sad and scary how you've become an 'uncle', literature wise. I hope it doesn't happen to me. Haha.
I'd kill myself if it does.
It's nice having someone to talk to, where I don't feel the need to filter everything that comes out of my mouth. :)




Hocrap, my Biochem quiz. It was just...sad. Let's leave it at that.



Now, there are 3 things I need to get off my chest.
1. I need to stop expecting things from people. Even my friends. It's not a question of their capacity of delivering but it's more of a idon'twanttobedissapointed thing. I hate having to be dissapointed in a friend. It's a bad, infectious ugly thing that gives bad vibes and eats my insides.
2. I won't be who I should be for anyone. I am who I am with flaws and issues, and I can't cover them all up just to give an impressive impression. Scratch that, of course I can but I won't. Ever. If I'm too much, or too little, or too apalling then there's nothing I can do about it. So maybe other people should stop trying.
3. I'm at my wit's end. I can't stand anything to do with love, crushes, and/or any type of questions, pictures, memories, gossips about it right now. It's like fingernails on a board. It's like the first bite of cold when you take you covers off in the morning. It's like when someone who doesn't know when to shut the fuck up. It's like a constant backstabbing. Why? Because I'm a stubborn introvert little elf. And also it's annoying as hell.




Nothing like a good ol peach shisha to send the mind up with the stars. Whee~
"Pretty eyed boys girls die to trust."
I'd love to stay and continue but Pharma exam this Saturday. fhgktoksokmtkjdfttt.
Oh yeah, I bought 4 pashminas, and dangg, they are pretty. :))











signed,
scaredshitless.

Current mood: none

Listening to: Fall Away