Hey, come back to me.

I'm ranting.


As of 10 minutes ago, I want nothing more than to go back home. Because 10 minutes ago I remembered how home somehow solves everything. From a minor faulty internet connection that breaks off intermittently to a major case of the munchies to an even major case of tiresome, tiresome relations with people. It's almost scientific how things get better the farther away I am from here. This place sucks, the things that I have to do here sucks, and the people here suck more.

I don't want to sound greedy or what but seriously, why can't I get what I want? Why do I always get things that are not only not what I want but also sucks and destroys every future chance of getting the things that I do want?

Give me a break. I'm all up for the faith testing and stuff, but I just want one thing to go my way. One small thing. My nutritional status, my financial status, my love life, my red pen, anything at all. Something to show me that I'm not completely a loser.

And you know when you try to talk to older people like your mom or sister or an older friend and they just dismiss you because you're 18 and teen angst is just a phase blablabla. Yeah, what the crap is up with that? This is not teen angst. If it is I'd be bipolar already. Or schizophrenic. Or go around shooting people in the foot. I just have problems. My problems and my age may be related but it doesn't mean they're dismissable.

And please, someone argue with me. I'm bored out of my metaphorical hat here. Lately I walk down the street wishing someone would just grab my ass already so I can have a decent confrontation and punch someone in the nuts.

Also, I miss Disney movies a lot. I swear all I'm watching this summer is Disney movies. And lots of E! Entertainment News. You know what else I miss? My piano. And playing it.


All this energy and all I do is lie on my bed and study about gross tapeworm.
God I'm an idiot.


"We set the wrong course
And headed due north
That's where we went wrong.

We were young and learning
Steady hearts, hate turning
That's where we went wrong.

My will to fight has been flushed
Seized like blank babies faces
The water line begins to rise.

Let the tide swallow me whole
Like morning light in windows
Let that dark water take me home."

-Where We Went Wrong, The Hush Sound.

This is a great song. Appropriate yet a bit too dramatic right now, but great song. They should make a new album.