Be whoever you have to be, I won't judge you.

I don't know if you notice, but I'm a very polite and nice person. I don't like hurting people. Sometimes my moral compass can be slightly deviated, but it's still due north. I say please and thank you and excuse me all the time. I don't yell at sales person when they screw up a reciept. I would choose to keep my mouth shut rather than telling the truth and set hell loose on everyone.

Only, I just realized 30 seconds ago I'm nice because it's convenient for me. Because it makes things easier for me. I don't actually care if people are happy when I'm nice to them, I just want them out of my way. People don't bother with nice people.

Is it just me, or is this pretty normal with everyone else?

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I don't know if I'm still waiting. I don't know if I've given up. I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know if I still care. I don't know if I still want something from you. I don't know if we're still friends.
I just know that I'm miserable without you.

Maybe it'll help if you know that I'm miserable without you.
Maybe all I need is for you to know that I'm miserable without you, with you knowing that I don't know if I'm still waiting or I've given up or what I'm going to do next or if I still care or if I still want something from you or if we're still friends.


I don't make sense, but I hope you still remember that's what you used to like about me.

Lets get lost,
me and you,
an ocean and a rock is nothing to me.

-Lisa Hannigan, Ocean and a Rock.