You did not think when you sent me to the brink.

I took this pill. Now I feel awesome!

I think my body's chemicals react differently to drugs.

There's a term for it. There was a whole fucking chapter about it in Pharma. I forgot what it's called.

My mom said the pill isn't supposed to make people feel awesome and high but I am awesome and slightly high. My body is physiologically different than the general masses, take that conformity! Hahahahahahahahaha.

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I've been harassing people on Twitter and Facebook since an hour ago. I should stop.

Anyway, in that one hour, I've rediscovered a long suppressed talent of mine; ass kissing. I can make a person feel so good about themselves, and then subtly ask them to do something for me. And it worked.

Granted, I've only been talking to mindless idiots with no mental defenses whatsoever so I might have to sharpen this talent before taking on the smarter, more important half of humanity.

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I feel different. I mean, I think I feel different. For the past 2 weeks I've been here. I think... I'm...maturing. But I don't know. It's only logical for me to grow up mentally and shit. And you know, there isn't a part of me that wants people to pay for all the things they've done wrong to me. Like, revenge and things.

But who knows. Maybe I might go ape shit if I see that person.

Maybe I won't.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!

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Anyway, I've been listening to only Mumford & Sons and Foster the People for the last 72 hours. My iTunes is confused with the mix of the two different sounds.

In all seriousness, Mumford & Sons is one of the most awesome bands in the galaxy. Foster the People, I don't know. Reminds me of MGMT though.

Speaking of awesome bands. I told my mom the other day. "Mak, remember this name; Coldplay. They're a band. If they're playing anywhere near me, I will HAVE to go, regardless of the cost. Okay?"

She stayed quiet but I knew she knew I wouldn't say random shit like that if I wasn't serious about it.

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I've finished packing. People are all, "Ahh bring this and that for me" Screw you, I won't. There's already a service for that, it's called the post office.

Pya said the house is in the shits, like how it always is every start of term. I said we should move. We might have to split up. So now we're looking for houses. Or we might not move at all. I don't know. 6 people making a definite decision takes time.

I seriously feel we need to move because the house has been a big costly pain in my ass. But the view and location is so amazing that I am having second thoughts. My balcony is pretty bad ass.

I don't know. But we have to figure something out. Or else I'm going to flip out.

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I STILL DON'T HAVE A GUITAR!

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I'm worried about my eldest sister. You know, like the rocks at the bottom of the cliffs. How the raging sea and waves bitch slaps it day and night, year after year, and it just takes it because it can't move and nature has given it a special responsibilities to accept the bitch slaps of the sea because the sea is a spoilt bratty boy that throws tantrums all the time? Point is, I hope my sister won't drown.

I would simply just die if she's not around.

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I need to talk to someone clever and unbiased.

Like Big Bird.

I need to make new friends.

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