Rant.

"Either you wait and suffer or tell him the truth. You've got no choice."

Yeah, I seem to be running out of choices a lot now. All I get are those "do it or die" ultimatums. Sushi or chocolate cake? Medicine or financial exile?

Meh. I didn't think this is where I'd be 3 years ago.

The concept of love is perfect. But apply it to a human being and they screw it up. Screw love up for all of us. Well for me anyway.

You know that one scene in "A Whole New World" when Aladdin does that apple trick and Jasmine realized it's actually Aladdin and she had that look on her face (you know that scene don't lie), back then that was love for me.

Now though, husband and wife of almost 30 years of marriage go at each other's throat bickering and threatening divorce and not coming home for 5 years and missing birthdays and parent teacher conference. Well..that doesn't really show love to me, it just shows what the Disney movies didn't, what happens after you fall in love.

Point is, Allison Reynolds was right, when you grow up your heart really does die.

Oh look at me all cynical and shit like an old lady.

When you get older things get harder. Choices are limited. You can't climb a tree because now you know that a broken rib can pierce your lungs and you'll die from a popped lung. Consequences matter, screwing up is a possibility, responsibilities aren't a myth anymore.

That's why the little trivial things matter. I think. I don't know. I'm just thinking out loud here.

I have pharyngitis, my voice doesn't work, I have exams this Thursday and forever, they haven't confirmed my ticket flight yet and a whole bunch of shit. So yes excuse my thinking out loud.