"Of course it's a big deal, I'm another year closer to being dead."

17 now feels so juvenile and lame. 18 feels better. Just like how 17 felt much better than 16 last year.

Not that I am any different than two days ago when I was 17, but being surrounded by older people for most of my life makes turning 18 significant somehow.

Eh, people kept going 'LEGAL DOWH! woot!' to me and I can't help but get carried away with their excitement. But now that I have the time to really think about it, I don't get what's the fuss of being legal is all about. I was stupid enough to think that 18 means freedom. You know, driving and running around with guns or go clubbing or whatever.

Honestly, now that the whole party is over, being legal doesn't mean shit to me. In fact, now I would be tried as an adult if I ever kill anyone and that is bad.
And my mom still calls me up and she still has super power over me. Even my big sister managed to scare me into restricting my curse words.

It's like, the whole fuss of being legal is making bigger mistakes and paying greater consequences. Heck right now I'm drinking gallons of coffee trying to reduce the headache of my first mistake as an 18 year old.

But I am excited for this year. Very excited. People tell me to 'have a blast' and I plan to.

I'll start by briefly describing what I did today.
I went to Kinokuniya and spent 3 hours scouring the shelves and harassing the lady behind the desk. I also made friends with this British lady who was looking for 'the other book by the bloke that did The Kite Runner'.

I was out of authors to read so I messaged everyone (3 org je) I knew who read books for recommendation. Satu haram tak balas message.
I ended up buying another Coelho and Murakami.
But I really need a new author to obsess with.

Then spent the whole night with Luke, Sab and Sufi. It was awesome. Tonight was so hot, it burns. And it was raining.

Really wished the rest were there too though. (sad sad)

Thank you Luke, Sab and Sufi for a great night. I feel very loved.



Also, thanks to my family, friends, friends of friends, friends of sister's, weirdos, people I never talk to, and 2 random people in KLCC (im so cool, they want to wish me. kiss the ground i walk on yo) for the birthday wishes.

I'm truly overwhelmed, really. Didn't expect that much people to remember.
Even though most of you had Facebook to remind you.

If I could buy donuts for all of you to show how much I really appreciate it, I would.




ika.

Current mood: takut result tapi excited
Listening to: Ignorance.