USA is too far. Please don't go.

Home was supposed to give me happy thoughts but now it fills me with great disgust.

Friends are saying 'Peek a boo bitch!' left and right, finally coming out of the dark with secrets, so called revelations and god knows what else.

Memories are starting to be my only friend and it's sad.

Boredom is reaching brain mush stage and I was reduced to sitting at parks at night finding amusement in children falling down from mini scooters.

When people talk, it's starting to sound very ridiculous and pointless because well, I don't really care.

People think I've forgotten about them, and I'm starting to feel like I will if they keep bothering me with it.

I'm scared shitless of the exams and of losing someone I don't even have yet. Hopelessly smitten with an asshole.

I'm partially deaf and I've realized I can get incredibly quiet and people tend to forget I'm around.

This is what I get for being good friends with a perverted play boy:
sakit hati sakit hati sakit hati sangat sakit hati sakit hati sakit hati gila babi.
You shall receive my foot down your mouth the moment I set my eyes on you. I swear on your brother's life, you will bleed.

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It's demeaning when you think I've forgotten about you and everyone back home. It really is.

I will not explain why I haven't been keeping contact with you.
You should already know why you lovely asshole.


The next time you feel all righteous and emotional, and feel like reminding me not to forget, don't. I swear to God, DON'T.


Also, please know that I do miss you every single day since I've been here. I don't even have to exaggerate when it comes to you. I love you too fucking much, that's my problem.

sigh. USA is too far away. Please don't go.

ika.

Current mood: :(

Listening to: Run.