Saturday, June 27, 2009

I want a lover I don't have to love.

Besides being painful and redundant, love can also have bad timing, apparently. It comes out from the bushes all smiling and hunts you down until you're out of your mind, figuring out how to make it go away. I used to go looking for it, but now I envy those who's still waiting for it. I forgot that I'm still wiping snot from my nose when it comes to love.

And you won't always like what you find, I forgot all about that too.


"Just do it. You have nothing to lose. It's when you don't do it that you lose everything." -ika.



I bought a Franz Kafka just now and read a bit of it at Cilantro. It was nice.
It's been a while since I cuddled on a sofa with a good book and read until my eyes give out.

A book can never bore me, it doesn't talk, I can know what it's about before I buy it if I want to, it can't lie and I can have as many of them as I want without having to give up the old ones.
They're the perfect friends. I don't know why I even bothered to have real human friends in the first place.


Anyway, I don't know how I am now suddenly a part of a study group.

I also don't know when the damn Arab is going to come and finish up my room's floor.

And I don't know how I can get so goddamn amused with Optimus Prime and his army of vehicle robots.

But I do know this 20 or so days until the 21st of July will be the hardest and longest days I'm going to have since October. And not just because of the final exams.



"And I came upon a doctor, who appeared in quite poor health,
I said, "There's nothing I can do for you, you can't do for yourself".
He said, "Oh, yes you can, just hold my hand,
I think that that would help."
So I sat with him a while and I asked him how he felt,
He said, "I think I'm cured. No, in fact I'm sure of it.
Thank you stranger, for your theraputic smile".
So that's how I learned the lesson, that everyone's alone.
And your eyes must do some raining if you're ever gonna grow."
- Bowl of Oranges, Bright Eyes.

Conor Oberst is my little silent genius. sigh.





ika.
Current mood: so tired.
Listening to: Drunk Kid Catholic.

1 comment:

Zufar Ismail Zeid said...

Cheers to celibacy. It's the perfect plan. Oh and I think nobody realises that we are basically a study group. I'm still coming to terms with it.