you hollow out my hungry eyes.

He broke the barriers
Memories burried under
The past is inside
Pushed aside
Hidden by the days
Spent wasted away
I miss my dreams
I miss my silent sanctuary
His gentle disguise
And those eyes
They come running
Screaming and flooding
The place I call home
Sounds so unknown
Robbed of the chance
To hold them near
The sun went down ages ago
Why are you still waiting?
I don't think they're coming.









I can't believe that a phone call is all that stands between my family and me. It's sad how we are always alone when all we ever wanted was to be together. Watching the same moon doesn't mean anything anymore nowdays. I'm sick of the distance and I'm done wishing for the past to relive itself.
I miss my room. My stupid, silent room. And the empty sofa I sit on alone everyday watching TV until my brain turns to mush. The sad, irritating sounds of the fan and crickets that tells me the house is empty. The resentment and the right to be bitter. I miss all of that.





Oh friggin hell. Darn it all.











The hyperactive being that is my Abg Long just made me all cuddly and smart again.

Yes, the worthless entity brings nothing but doom and desperation, yet the stupid idiot pig is the one that holds on to my squeamish heart. Let's wait this out shall we? I'm going to be 21 in 3 years and by then I'm sure I'll be alright and emotionless.
I won't lose to a feeling, I promise. I've come this far. This is just an angry little dot.
Though I am guilty of constantly falling back to a state of severe cynical depression whenever I face a bump in the road.
But yes, I don't owe anyone to make my life more satisfied and meaningful. I'm in debt to myself.



Your creepy happiness makes me happy too and I thank you for that.
Who needs drugs when you have conversations like that?
:)



Oh yeah, stick em wooden pegs up their asses. They deserve it.















.......hey, I'm only 17. What do you expect?

















akika.

Current mood: just fine

Listening to: Make Damn Sure.