i'll look after you

I am a 17 year old girl, a daughter, a sister and a stranger, with mistakes and a past. I am a medical student but I don't let it define who I am. I am a good person who makes bad choices and decisions. I could be the whole world or the vast open seas. I can be anything because I don't want to be tied down. Bound to something that's not filling enough, big enough or satisfying enough for my mind. My soul, brain, inner being, my chi, whatever you call it, can't handle being someone that's expected by people. I know they have a certain point of view of who they think I should be but I really don't give a crap about it. I'm not the one to start a conversation. I could be the quietest person you've met and I could be the loudest too. I don't care about things that doesn't interest me. Like boys, dress codes, being proper, finance or fitting in. And even when I do care, I'll keep them all locked inside. And honestly, I feel closer to death now than I ever thought I could be.
I can make it in the begining but I can never finish the ending. And now I'm even more confused than I was 15 minutes ago.








signed,
ika.

Current mood: confused

Listening to: Look After You